Title:Wasting Away
Pairing: Akame
Genre: angst
Summary: Jin never liked people calling him fat
I just wanted to write alittle why i wrote a story about this. The first reason is that I don't like when people call him fat, and it seemed like when he went back to Japan alot of people started commenting about his weight. Which is something I won't say cause come on, you come to america you better expect to put on a few pounds and if your an idol it will be noticed :) But I didn't like when people started to call him 'fat ass' and names such as that, i didn't think that was appropriate. So this is just a view on what could have happeded not what I want.
Kame watched as Jin slept in the bed so calm and silent. His slumber was so graceful almost as if he were a doll created to appear asleep. Kame let his eye dance across Jin's room, there were tube and needles poking everywhere that a vein could be found, trying as hard as they could to get nutrients into his body. Bags of fluid surrounded the bed side and EKGs were stacked high on the table beside him while his doctors watched and listened carefully for his heart monitor, hoping it wouldn't go off.
Kame closed his eyes and looked away knowing that tears would form if he kept on staring. It hadn't always been this way. There was a time that Jin was healthy and happy, and he would have probably stayed that way if they didn't treat him so.......
Kame opened his eyes to stare into the sick, skinny, anorexic, dying face of Jin. Remebering all that happened.
***
Jin stared into the eyes of the person interviewing him, to stunned to say anything.
"Akanishi-san, are you okay?" the interviewer said.
Jin blinked the shock away and tried to compose himself back up.
"I'm sorry what did you say?"
"Why did you decide to put on so much weight while you were gone?"
Jin faked a laugh and looked down at himself trying to knock some of the embaressment off.
"I didn't even realise that I had gained that much. I guess that I have to just go on a diet."
That was the first time that anyone had confronted Jin about his appearence since he had returned. Sure there was talk about his hair getting alittle too long but that was all that anyone had ever said.
***
Jin fell on the couch exhausted from his dance routine not realising that the other five were standing behind him upset.
Ueda cleared his throat effectively getting Jin's attention.
"Umm, hey guys.'
"Jin, what are you doing?" A very upset Ueda asked.
Jin frowned and raised his eyebrow, "I'm just resting the dance routine was tiring."
Ueda shook his head, " No Jin, there's no time for resting. You were gone for a long time and have to get back on track. Now until you get these dance routines down your not leaving."
Jin stood up from the couch, "All I need is to master one move before I get the whole dance completed."
Ueda crossed his arms, "Then you better get mastering then, right?" he let in sarcastically.
Jin sighed and walked out of the breakroom to the dance hall. The thought of continuing dancing was just tiring enough without actually performing. With a suck of breath Jin turned on the music and started to dance again.
***
Ueda watched as Jin danced from outside the dance hall's door waiting for Jin to skrew up. Ueda didn't know what to make of it half the group came and complained that Jin's lack of performance was slowing them down. Though inside he had known it was true. Performances for the band were now always getting pushed back farther and farther, and sales were starting to go down on tickets. Ueda couldn't blame their fans though, who would want to buy tickets for alot of money when there was no garentee that they were going to perform.
Ueda mind reforcused when he heard the music shut off.
It was far to soon for Jin to be taking a break, yet there he was, huffing and puffing away as if he had been practicing for hours straight. With a growl Ueda marched up to Jin and pulled him to his feet.
"What do you think your doing?" Jin asked dumbfounded, he wasn't even aware that his leader had been watching him.
"Do you think this is a game?" Ueda questioned his eyes burning with anger.
Tugging his elbow away Jin back up from Ueda trying to put soem distance between the two of them.
"No, it's not that. I know it's not a game. I just got tired and was taking a breather that's all."
With a shake of his head Ueda took a deep breath trying to calm himself down.
"Why, Jin? Why is this so hard for you?" he asked with anger and almost hatred in every word.
Fear and confusion ran through Jin. He didn't have any idea as to why he would be so tired, he just thought it was what anyone felt when they were gone for months.
Without waiting for an answer Ueda lashed out, " Listen Jin, I don't care how you fix it! Just do it! Maybe you should try going on a diet! I bet it's all that weight you gained for America that is slowing you down!"
Saying all he had to say Ueda turned around and left the room.
***
The sky was dark by the time Jin was ready to leave. All thoughts were still on the scene had taken place earlier in the dance hall.
Never in his time here at JE had he seen Ueda so mad.
Jin stopped moving, hearing voices coming from the bands breakroom. As he neared closer Jin realised that lights were on and his band members were still there, and were the source of the voices he had heard.
All bad thoughts now erased, Jin rejoiced at the thought of not being alone.
"Did you talk to Jin?" Jin stopped from entering upon hearing his name being spoken.
"Yes, I did. I told him to go on a diet. Just like you all wanted me to." Jin heard who he assumed to be Ueda followed by what sounded like Koki's laugh.
"It's going to take way more than a diet to melt away all that weight!"
Embaressment and hurt stabbed at Jin's heart. He didn't understand why his weight was suddenly the biggest thing on everybody's mind. They obviously couldn't be happy with the fact that he was just back and healthy.
"Did you tell him that he was slowing us down?" Someone called out.
"Good, hopefully now he will understand how much he is actually bothering us."
"Guys don't you think you are being to hard on Jin?" Jin heard Junno question the others.
Jin smiled, at least one thought that it was wrong what they were talking about. Without waiting for an answer that he was sure he wouldn't enjoy, Jin walked away. It didn't matter to him, the extra weight that he had put on, or the comments that his supposively friends made. Oh how he wished that Kame was there with him. He hadn't seen the latter since he arrived from America, they talked on the phone but that wasn't enough. He couldn't show or express his feeling through some cold metal device. All he could do was wait the last remaining hours alone until they will meet each other to perform at their first concert together as a whole. The thought automatically cheered him up. There was no way that Jin was going to let anything spoil his mood.
***
Jin fidgeted nervously as he waited outside the stadium. Everytime the sound of car would reach his ears he would stretch his neck as long as he could to see if it was the dark black car that he knew so well. He remembered how he had promised Kame that he would return unchanged. That had been one of Kame's biggest fears, that when Jin came back he would be a totally different person. To make sure that nothing would change about him, he strictly limited his social time while in America.
Jin eyes shot up when he caught a glimpse of headlights coming toward him.
Holding his breath, he waited as the car parked and the door opened.
"Jin?"
A smile formed on Jin's face as he saw Kame step out from the car door.
"Kame!" Jin ran and grabbed the latter into a death grip.
"I missed you so much!" When no anwser cam Jin pulled Kame away from him to be met with confused eyes.
"Kame...." Jin noticed that Kame's gaze wan't even directed at his face.
Gently so not to anger the other Jin pulled Kame's face so that both sets of eyes locked onto each other.
"Are you okay?"
Whatever had been on Kame's mind was soon pushed aside and a small smile was there instead.
"Yeah.....I just.......I just haven't seen you in a long time." Kame stammered on. Jin didn't understand what was wrong with Kame, It was almost like the other was afraid, but Jin couldn't really tell.
"We should get going....."Kame mummbled softly before walking on ahead without Jin.
"Did I do something wrong?" Jin asked once he had caught up.
A shake of the head and a faster walking pace was all Jin got.
***
WELL THAT'S ALL FOR RIGHT NOW. THERE ARE ONLY TWO PARTS TO THIS STORY AND I ALREADY HAVE IT ALL WRITTEN OUT IN MY "JOURNAL OF FICS" TAAAADDDDDDAAAHHHH. LOL THAT'S ALL I DO WHEN I AM IN MY CLASSES IS WRITE. A COMPUTER IS REALLY DIFFICULT TO GET NOWER DAYS SO IN ORDER TO UPDATE QUICKER I GOT MY JOURNAL:) THAT WAY WHEN I DO GET A COMPUTER ALL I HAVE TO DO IS READ, AND REWRITE:) GENIOUS, LOL
ps: i realise my english is going to hell and so is my writing style:( but it will get once I move back to america
PSS: I hope by writing the fic I am not offending anyone:( that is not my intention. Also the next chapters are going to be really angsty so be prepared!
- Location:In MEXICO:)
- Mood:
thirsty - Music:The balcony scene= pierce the veil.
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Comments
When I was watching the PV of Rescue and the making of video, I just wanted to know what part of him is fat?
Almost no one can be as skinny as they were when they were a teenager and yeah unfortunately America = unhealthy.
Ryo made it a joke between them in that magazine but others took it and ran with it.
Sorry, I got on my soapbox on this issue.
I do like the premise of your story.
Waiting for the next part.
Thanks for sharing this.
I'm glad that someone understood what I ment.
I mean it's true that, unfortunatly if you go to America you can kiss your sweet little figure goodbye.lol
And making it a joke is okay (like in fics), but IDK, i guess living in America when people and other things started calling him fat, it was like....."That's not fat."
sorry for my rant
And I live in Washington State in a suburb of a major city and yet in this neighborhood there is at least 5 fast food places within 10minutes of my house.
How crazy is that?
For Jin though, people just take it a little too far. I just want to tell them to get over it.
As for Jin, I just want to take him to a buffet and tell him to shut up and eat till he's happy:)
I felt like this could be a really touchy topic and at first was very reluctant of even post it up. But I am glad that people agree with me.
Sometime I wonder what would happen if he or anyother star would see a comment like that. To me it would be enough to ruin a life.
please update soon !!!
jin is not fat!!!
what da hell they're talking about!
*angry mode*
warghhhhhhh~~~ This is s0 sad T_T
lease update ~~ I like this st0ry ^^
But I am really glad you like this story:)
and he looks so good when he's fat.. o mean healthy ahahaha!
please dont let jin die...
ToT
i wanna read more...
soon!☺♥☺
But I will update soon so you won't have to wait:)
Jin is not fat!Just because he's not as skinny as the others,and he's just normal doesn't mean he's fat!And he went to America!I mean America=fast food.So he couldn't help it,right?
Now to the fic.It's awesome and I really can't wait for the secong part.I hope Jin won't get hurt.I'll be waiting!
Saddly I can't promise anything at this point about the story. I know alot of people are wishing for a happy ending, but the thing is I'm not trying to make it a story, story....if that makes any sense. I want to make it like realistic. Anyway I will update soon:)
I hope people will stop making such comments about Jin's body.Jin is alright,and if he is healthy,then we can't ask for anything else.
I really dislike it when ppl start calling others fat, especially in Asian countries. All the idols I see are toothpicks, so when I see a star who actually looks like they're at a healthy weight, it depresses me that "fans" start complaining about their size. Okay, I'll get off my soapbox right now =).
I always thought that this would be an interesting topic to write a fic about, and I'm glad you did. I look forward to the next chapter and I hope you post it soon.
I am really glad you like my fic. I will post soon:)
jin is actually sensitive and he was kind of upset with his weight issue after the hiatus. check out the CKT episode where they didn't have any plans [yes the kokame chiba thing where koki professes his undying love for kazu and kazu looks-- awkward, maybe because he's worried about jin?]. it was jinda here, and tatchan kept on insisting to go on a food trip, to which jin replies "food trip? no, i'll get fat again."
and i'm ranting, sorry. please update, and let jin live, so that he can tell kazu to stop stuffing his cheeks with food, he looks more like a squirrel than a turtle [but i love them both anyways].
Saddly I never saw that episod, but now I really do. Specialy if there is some Jinda in there :) But i did see the one where him and nakamaru went to eat and he didn't want to.
lol and yes a very cute and puffy squirrel:)
I will update soon:)
umm excuse me, he's fat? is that some kind of sick joke? oh, so being a toothpick with your ribs showing and hip bones jutting out is ssooooo attractive compared to a human BEING with some flesh and muscle. jin is not fat. if jin was FAT, what would the real "fat" people be? seriously, as much as i love kame, he needs to eat. now. well, he looks better than before, but really. toothpick idols just scare the living daylights out of me.
ex.: i showed my friends pics of KAT-TUN, and the first thing they said was "that guy" (points to jin) "looks healthy and living. those on the other hand" (points to rest of them) "need to learn how to eat more". there. even us azn people that dont live in asian countries can tell what's normal and what's not in terms of weight. i can understand if they're muscly or SLENDER. but some JE idols / celebs arent SLENDER (slender = w/muscle but still slim). some of them are just plain horribly SKINNY. since when was looking like a skeleton hot? i feel bad for jin. so what, he was is LA, USA. junk food nation. plus, he wasnt like dancing 12 hours a day. he was studying (hopefullly), and going out w/friends.
it scares me how the new image of looking good is looking like you've been dieting since like you were born. hopefully the stupid media will learn how to stop, cause who knows. what if jin really decides to do what a lot of fanfics say he might do - go anorexic, bulemic, lose too much weight, and end up what, DYING? no thank you. jin's body is beautiful the way it is. sometimes i really the the media and their way of thinking...
sorry about the rant :P it's cause my mom constantly calls jin a fat ass in front of me, knowing i like him , only cause she HATES him w/an incomprehensible burning passion...
nice fic. i really really like it.
<333
Any way sorry for the going off topic with eveything else, just nice to vent. And as far as your mom don't worry my mom doesn't like him neither. When she comes in my room the first thing she ALWAYS say is, "¡Ah mi hija! ¿Por qué tiene usted tantos carteles de esos chico chino flaco por todas partes su pared? ¿Justo no puede estar usted enamorado de un mexicano? "
lol she just basically saying why do I have so many posters of a chinese boy all over my wall and why can't I just love a mexican like everyone else in SA. (ps: i know jin isn't chinese, but my mom doesn't care, so she just says chinese.)
Maybe it's my eyes but I never see Jin fat at all. I can't really understand why the term "Jin is Fat" keeps appearing in fics even if it's just a joke. What do people want, Jin to be as skinny as Kame in NwP? People are love to hate and hate to love. Stars are either too fat or too skinny. People must think they are so perfect and so healthy themselves that they think they have to right to criticize others.
I will update soon:)
just because most people in japan are skinny, putting on some weight is considered fat then theyre bunch of crazy/idiotic people..LOL! (no offense)
but seriously speaking, jin is healthy..i love how his body is now, compared to the skinny jin before...
people should just like get over it!!!
grrr..things like this make me mad...
why are people mean to our jin2x...
I LOVE HIM JUST THE WAY HE IS..LOL!
thanks 4 this..i love it..
oh and please update it soon..LOL!
(and thanks 4 addng me up!)
(Thnx 4 adding me first :))
and update soon? =) so is actually left with one more part?
I love him the way he is.And I don't think he's fat at all. ^^
will wait for the update~
I concur! Jin isn't fat - he's probably the only one in the healthy weight range for guys his height in KAT-TUN. Jin's not my favourite member, but he is one of them...
Is it just me, or has he been loosing weight recently?
I don't think that he'd loose to the point of being anorexic though. He loves his food too much =P
Do continue the fic, but watch out for future grammatical errors!~
i'm glad you wrote this fic cos you're right,, no one should've made fun of his weight.. i wasn't in the fandom when he came back from LA, so i dunno how fat he was.. but to be honest, i do call him "fat" as a joke cos he's got the largest body frame in the group.. (maybe i should stop?? O__O) but i know he's actually not fat at all. especially recently! he's lost so much weight! i hope he doesn't lose any more weight... T____T